Disappointment

It is very upsetting when you find out that someone has lied to you. And even more upsetting when its someone who is in your family (who should have NO reason to lie because I will love them unconditionally.) But when you give them the opportunity and extend your hand to them and they still lie, bold face.....how do you deal with that? Three fucking months ago I gave him the opportunity to tell me the truth......in fact these were my exact words: "If (this thing that I'm keeping private for my family's sake) is true, tell me now." He answers "no, of course not, I would never do that again." To which I reply: "If you are not telling me the truth I will never be able to trust you again." And I ask him again. And still the same answer..."no."

Lying is something we all do. We lie to others as well as to ourselves. But when lying is so second nature to people....its really scary. And this is the issue at hand. And the sad part is I wanted to believe him when he told me "no". And for a while I REALLY tried to suspend my disbelief and truly give him the benefit of the doubt (even though I knew there was a 80% chance he was lying).

Well. Fine. Fuck YOU. You are such a pathetic piece of shit. And through it all I feel SO SORRY for you. Because you are throwing your life away and you don't even realize it. You are so sad. I pity you. You are such a Loser. I wish I could help you realize what you are doing to your life and all the people who care about you. But how can I when you can't even help yourself and certainly don't want any advice from anyone. I am watching a train wreck and I feel so helpless to be able to change any course of events. What the fuck is wrong with you?

It will never be the same. I can never trust you again. You have disappointed me for the last time!